Thursday, April 19, 2012

Paper Cuts and New Flames

New Flame and me first time round...
I have endured a month of agent rejections which felt like death by a thousand paper cuts washed in lemon juice. The first wasn't too bad, the second was ho hum-ish. When heading into double figures I was wilting and it stung. Luckily (and who would've thunk) work got crazy busy and very successful as well. I dived in and it helped. A little.

It hasn't helped that I haven't seen New Flame for four months. It has been a long four months. He isn't much of a writer so we have been skyping like crazy. It is an interesting way to develop a relationship. It feels a little like old fashion courting. You talk lots and find what you have in common but there is no touching. Just lots of yearning. It feels more intimate...

But that is all about to change... I am counting down the hours (at the beginning of the week I was counting the sleeps) until I see him. I have overpacked my suitcase. I have had a haircut. I left excited behind sometime ago and am now orbiting exhilarated. I'm also, if I'm honest, slightly scared. What happens if it isn't the same? What happens if the flame has died? Silly but I can't help myself.

But when I see him at the airport tomorrow night I know I'll have sweaty palms and my heart will be racing. And I'll have a massive cheesy grin on my face.

And of course the writer in me will be hoarding these feelings and experiences and wondering how they'll fit into a story.

Whilst I'm off on cloud nine Susanna will be here on Sunday.
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15 comments:

  1. Julie CohenApril 19, 2012 at 5:48 PM

    You've made me cry. I hope it's as wonderful as you could possibly dream it will be.

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    1. UnknownApril 19, 2012 at 5:56 PM

      I hope it was a cry in a good way. It will be as wonderful as its meant to be :-)

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  2. Jan JonesApril 19, 2012 at 5:48 PM

    Rooting for you both, hon. Enjoy :)

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  3. UnknownApril 19, 2012 at 5:56 PM

    Thanks sweetie x

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  4. Scarlet WilsonApril 19, 2012 at 5:59 PM

    He's gorgeous. Here's hoping you're heading for your own HEA!

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    1. UnknownApril 19, 2012 at 6:09 PM

      Awww I think he is too (but hands off he's mine!)

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  5. BucksWriterApril 19, 2012 at 6:01 PM

    Have a wonderful, brilliant, cheesy, indulgent festival of romance - then tell us everything! Claire x

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  6. Susanna KearsleyApril 19, 2012 at 6:54 PM

    First time I've seen New Flame, and I have to agree with Scarlet. He's a keeper. Awesome eyes!

    I know just how you feel, as it happens. I once fell hard for a guy I'd known before, then spent a few difficult months living an ocean apart while running up an enormous phone bill (the woman who ran the Post Office in my village used to blanche at the size of my BT bills every time I went across to pay...) because, like yours, mine wasn't much of a writer. Well, wasn't a writer at all.

    I despaired. I doubted. I moped about. And when he told me he was coming for a visit, I felt the same blend of excitement and panic.

    The visit was wonderful. The post-visit aftermath was awful. But it all worked out in the end.

    We've just celebrated our 14th wedding anniversary :-)

    (Tell New Flame we said "Hi". And have a lovely time).

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    1. UnknownApril 20, 2012 at 2:36 AM

      Thanks Susanna! I have my fingers crossed that it will work out like it did for you.

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  7. Christina CourtenayApril 20, 2012 at 5:14 AM

    Have an absolutely wonderful time! I'm sure you'll enjoy every minute!

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  8. UnknownApril 20, 2012 at 5:42 AM

    Have a wonderful time and do send my best to New Flame :-)
    lx

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  9. Elizabeth Kerri MahonApril 21, 2012 at 11:43 AM

    Have a wonderful time with New Flame. He seemed really nice when I met him.

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